so i havent done a real update in a while.
monday-nothing big until me, banana, and gerald went to the Kelly Clarkson concert. she's such an amazing vocalist and performer. her band is really great too. they have very good stage presence. i just wish i could've taken a picture with her but she wasnt feeling well that night so she had to go back to her bus as soon as it was over. afterwards, we saw john wilkes and alex [friends of gerald from d.a] and we all went to the village inn. we were there for a while and we had a couple good conversations, funny and serious. we found out that he goes to ft. caroline umc and he kinda gave us an insiders look as to what was goin in the church now that their pastor is gone. he said that things have gotten a lot better. then we talked to him about goin on a journey and he said that he would so do it except that his band is playing warped tour that weekend. poop..but there will be another journey so its all good. i'm hoping he can go on that one. i was explaining it to him and i was getting excited while telling him about it and i could tell he was too. twas neat. john would say "gerald, as my fashion consultant..." and ask him something. for example, the first time was about the length of his hair. gerald told him his opinion, and i quickly concurred. i said, "i wasnt gonna tell you b/c i didnt want you to think i was gay, but i really do like your hair. like the color and the length is perfect." then about 20 mins later he asked gerald about his "beard." gerald gave him his opinion and again, i concurred. he asked if i was gerald's partner and i asked gerald and he said i was, so i was like "YEAH!!" that was kinda cool. after dinner, we went to the cemetary to see if they had put in banana's gramma's headstone yet. i didnt know it, but it turned out to be the same cemetary that denise was buried in. we were there for maybe 10 mins and i came home.
tuesday-went to work and brandon was there. i was excited b/c i havent seen brandon for a month. uh...i dont think anything else happened.
wednesday- went to work and brandon came again. he helped me out a lot, in a number of ways. i had to leave early b/c i had an appointment with the dmv and i had a list of things to do. he helped me do the list and even a lil bit more so brandi could let me leave early. then he called his bro [he's a cop] to see if my license was really suspended or not. his bro said it would be a good idea if i didnt drive. so he took me to the bank, then to the dmv, and then we went to friendly's and had a good talkin to. then i came home for a few hours and went to singles. banana was there! we played ping-pong and then we tried playing extreme ping-pong but i suck at it. after singles was over, i was going outside and mo had asked [this convo isnt word for word but very darn close]
Mo: are yall done in there?
me: yeah, i mean, there are some people still prayin in there but thats it.
Mo. i have part B of abby's gift.
me: part B?
Mo: yeah cause i only had part A-
me: [by this time i had caught on to what was goin on] oh, abby's not here.
Mo: is she sick?
me: i dont know, she didnt tell me that she wouldnt be there. but she was at adventure landing all day and i bet she's really tired. i really like your hat [she was wearing a camouflage army cap]
then she went on to explain "warfare wednesdays" and stuff. it was so weird b/c we hadnt had a conversation longer than a few sentences since we "broke up."
Mo: have you seen fantastic 4!? [she was really excited about it]
me: YES!
Mo: wasnt it amazing!!?!?!
me: yeah! did you see it with Tim?
Mo: [the excitement had worn down as she went on to explain] yeah, after we left the theater i turned to him and said 'wasnt that great?' and he said 'yeah it was cool [in a nonchalant tone]' and i was thinking 'oh i wish jesus was here. he wouldve thought it was awesome.'
when she said that, it really got me. im not sure why, but it really did. like i was relieved that i wasnt the only one who thought about each other after we were over. it made me feel really good.
me: so how are you and tim doing?
Mo: well i'm sure you've already heard from abby-
me: yeah but its only b/c i asked. i wanted to make sure that he was treating you well, that's all.
i'm not gonna go into detail but she pretty much didnt enjoy the relationship. she told me that time wanted to make her do something she didnt wanna do and i immediately became angry although i didnt show it.
me: what was it? [i quickly realized that what i had asked was kinda personal and then i said] oh, i mean, nevermind, you dont hafta tell me if you dont want.
shen went ahead and told me and i was like "tim tim tim..::sigh::.." she kinda laughed and it basically boils down to she broke up with him. we kept talkin about some stuff.
me: well hey, i told abby i was gonna take abby to see war of the worlds and i didnt want it to be just the two of us, so if you wanna come you're more than welcome to.
[then we started talkin about the batman movie, but then i told her i had to get to practice although i would've much rather stayed to talk to her]
Mo: [she had put on the face that i remembered oh so very well] oh, and i just wanted to say im sorry for totally ignoring you and stuff-
me: no it was my fault to b/c i didnt do anything about it
soon after this, i had to leave for practice but when i got in the truck something hit me. like, you know how some people say "you dont know how much you miss something until its gone." well, for me it was kinda like i never realized how much i would miss having a convo with mo until i wouldnt have one for a long time. it was...really nice. when i got into my truck i was kinda excited. not b/c her and tim are done, but more so b/c.....i dont know why. it was just really awesome to talk to her again. it was really the highlight of my day. it totally made my day. ::sigh::......wow. anyway, practice came around and the only thing we really practiced was "indescribable." i love that song. such an awesome song.
i found the perfect song that describes my life at this time. its "High of 75" by Relient K.
We were talking together
I said "What's up with this weather?"
Dont know whether or not
How sad I just got
Was on my own volition
Or if I'm just missin the sun
And tomorrow, I know,
Will be rainy at best.
And the forecast, I know,
Is that I'll be depressed.
But I'll wait outside
Hopin that I'll catch sight of the sun.
Because on and off,
The clouds have fought
For control over the sky
And lately the weather
Has been so bi-polar
And Consequently so have I
And now I'm sunny with a High
of 75
Since You took my heavy heart
And made it light
And it's funny how you find
You enjoy your life
When you're happy to be alive
And the temprature is freezing
And then, after dark,
There is a cold front sweeping
In over my heart
And we might break up
If I dont wake up to the sun
Sunny with a High of 75
Since You took my heavy heart
And made it light (made it light)
And its funny how you find
You enjoy your life
When you're happy to be...
Alive | 
